A little odd. But possible?
I mean, I feel cheerful, even happy. Everything is good in my life (heck, I'd even say great). I have a wonderful fiancee, a lovely home, friends, nice food, and the means to live comfortably. I love school/research, I'm working on a non-profit startup, and wedding plans are slowly coming together. Things are really good in my life
But I'm stressed. I don't sleep well (if much at all). I am spacier than normal (oh yeah, its possible). I don't feel motivated (to eat right, exercise ... basically things I enjoy). We don't have time to climb, ski, or even canoe this year (which TOTALLY blows). I lie in bed a lot and feel tired all the time. I just don't feel good and home renovationss have been slow-slow-slow
I'm sure a good chunk of this is the god-awful eating habits I've acquired when I got back - I'll eat paleo for a few days, then eat very little, then go pig out on wretched things. I'm not quite sure why, either. Its not like I don't know better.
Is this depression? Matt thinks because we don't have any climbs planned for 2011 and because of school I'm a little down. He says I am more disciplined and focused when I have a goal in mind. He says I need a purpose, and not necessarily to just keep busy. He may be right, but I'm afraid it might be more?
Oh no! :-( I go through phases where I feel the same way, and I've noticed that my diet plays a MAJOR role in my mental health. Also, sleep is HUGE. Try eating strict Paleo and sleeping 8 hours a night (I know you mentioned you can't sleep. Try no TV, no food 2 hours before bed, no caffiene after 12p, and going to bed and waking up at the same time every day) for 7 days and see if you notice a difference.
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