Apparently, my ego has no bounds.

WOD @ 8:13 

50 Double-Unders
10 Power Cleans (110#)
40 Double-Unders
8 Power Cleans
30 Double-Unders
6 Power Cleans
20 Double-Unders
4 Power Cleans
10 Double-Unders
2 Power Cleans

Didn’t do a post until I got home - there was vinyasa and a 2k job with doggy, though. We love the forest and all the little animals.

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Ok. This prioritisation process is v-tough. I just need to stick. I'm avoiding the decisions I know I need to make. Slagging off and complaining is easier but not getting me anywhere... and it’s messing up my head. I keep saying I’ve made a decision, but then I oscillate. At my age, it shouldn’t be so tough and it’s not like I don’t know how to pick my battles or know where this is all going.

I need to choose between school and climbing.

In the timeframe I have left, it is unrealistic for me to simultaneously pursue a med degree, do charity work, train for/go on expeditions, and maintain a healthy relationship with Matt. My last relationship should have been my lesson, but noooo ... my ego just won’t let go.  I want to bite off more than what I can realistically chew.

I’ve never given up on anything. Anything. I set my sights on something, I plan, I mobilise, then I go get it. I’m always successful.

I wanted to change my career ... do a 180. Sure! I won’t be as strong as I used to be, but as long as I can contribute on the mountain, I can still be up there, right?! Go from a very successful career in technology to a wilderness MD. No problem.

I wanted to help this charity get grant money while helping me gain med credibility with research. Sure! My assistants structured my life for me and I can make up for all my karmic debt. I can make time and I can deal with the egos. No problem.

I’m getting married again. Sure! Matt is awesome. He’ll support my choices. He can go off to special forces while I am in med school. Wedding? Oh that’s easy. I’ve been married before... no problem.

Sure, I can defer med school until next year so I can do other things. The instructors I’m doing research for won’t mind if I go get married, go climbing for weeks at a time, do charity work too... No problem.

I’m Tery. My ego knows no bounds. I can do anything. It’s not like I’m not smart enough or don’t have a good work ethic. I can have it all.

OMG, I’m so full of crap.

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OK.  I'm done ranting and complaining. Time to grow a pair and let go. 
Sleep: 7
Stress: 8.5
Diet: 3
Health: 8.5
Strength: 65%
Mental Energy: 4
Physical Energy: 8