so much to say

So here I am on a lovely Saturday afternoon struggling to
get a few more chapters of WEMT studying done. I'm struggling not because
the material is difficult, but more because of all the distractions and
things on my mind.

Initial thoughts...
* my own ADD vs the ADHD (or lack thereof) of some of my friends . and, of
course, I love them anyway
* human quirks, idiosyncrasies, and imperfections . the good, the bad, and
everything else in between
* why isn't the cable working ... I wanna watch the news and discovery
channel* how far I've come in my life, how far I still need to go, and what
it's going to take to get there
* things to make life with Matty happy
* where the hell is the remote?!
* why I can't judge, why I can't really say anything . and how much I really
want to in spite of myself
* past mistakes, today's struggles, and the limitations to dealing with
tomorrow's goals
* I hate how dark it is in this condo ... can't WAIT to close on the house
and move
* not having enough money, time, youth, or capability to get the things I
want done done
* can I get away with eating this, working out with my back like this, or
procrastinating on studying again today
* damned this droid phone... it's so bloody addictive.
* I wish my back felt better so I could work on clean & jerks again
* only 4 hours till Tess needs to be walked again
* 13 days till the WEMT and 8 more chapters... oh man, long nights ahead
* Tess is cute. Matt is cute. Matt has cute berry feets. He likes it when I
rub his feet after work.
* work or school. work or school. work or school... did I make the right
decision?
* I could really go for a nice little piece of cheese. I wish I could afford
to eat at Avec again...
* "it's not that I feel old, it's that dating someone younger amplifies what
my age means." ... too true, ray. Too true
* obamacare ... wax on, wax off... slap on, whack off.
* unconstitutional ban on handguns ruling ... ahh the thrill of victory, but
the pain of getting there
* clean up, send out of the post, take out the trash, do laundry
* check to see if all my social networks, blog sites, and profiles are
securely screened
* foursquare, yelp, and facebook are the devil ... ooh. I got a new message

Stress: 7
Sleep: 6hrs
Mental energy: 6
Physical energy: 8
Health: back still in recovery