Bitch, Bitch, Bitch!

Matt found my good twin on the mainsite today - I think there's a photo of me that looks just like this too somewhere ... kinda funny!

Today's WOD was fun, but frustrating because

I'm not as strong as my ego thinks I am.

There, I said it. I had to put it out there and own up to it. I took way too much time off, got lazy, and got distracted. I have no one to blame except myself. Having said that...

Pull-up Ladder @ 4 pull-ups at round 10
(49 total ... I wanna add the other 4 Matt wouldn't count, though! Hmmmph!)
With a continuously running clock do one pull-up the first minute, two pull-ups the second minute, three pull-ups the third minute... progressively continuing as long as you are able.

Ok, I loved this because my pullups don't suck too much and I can string them 4-5 in a row ... Matt even said they were very nice and fluid (yay!) ... but I still need to build up my strength so I can string 10-15.

Yeah, so I also wanted to kill Matt for taking so many pull-ups away from my count (which tired me out and slowed me down even more), but I know that he's trying to help me improve and get my movement right. I also know that there are some battles not worth fighting and today's WOD was not one of them.

I'm trying!!

Side note: I will now work on deadhangs each day because I can only squeeze out 4 unlike my 9 personal best ... pulling 18lbs less bodyweight at that too. Good news is that we built a v-v-nice pullup bar in our garage so I can really get to it now. The same goes for pushups.

Lastly, I got the work done on my oh-so-late training plan. I think I have a decent draft going - I have the tendency to overthink things but I also hope it's solid enough to get coach's seal of approval (or at least not get thrown out of his office). Maybe I can work on it some more while I wait for him to get back to me :)

Day 10:
I didn't measure food/calories for the past week, but I am eating a little cleaner at least. I'm not used to starting training for a climb this far out, I've developed some bad ch-eating habits, and I have SO MANY distractions in my personal life.

We have limited time, focus, and resources ... and it sucks. Priorities are kept in mind, but it kills me to say that expedition training 15 months out can't compete too well with (1) a wedding in 8 months, (2) research for the next 6, and (3) renovations for the next 5, possibly more.

Something has to give and we have to be realistic. Its bad enough that I had to put school on hold, but no climbs for 2011 too?!?!?!

Seriously, not being able to even ice climb for more than a year is REALLY, REALLY, REALLY hard on me. Climbing is the whole reason why I decided to go back to school for a health profession, why I bother to train and diet, and why we live as spartan as we do.

If it weren't for our wilderness pursuits, I'd be just another chick eating chocolate croissants by the dozen, being little Mrs Housewife for Matt, and spending my savings at the mall instead of rogue, garage-world, and black diamond. Don't get me wrong, I love flipping those tires and hauling that sled, but I've also developed a taste for flipping myself cheeseburgers in the past 6 months and I'm too lazy to even be vain about my looks for our wedding.

Right... done bitching. It's annoying and counter-productive. Back to work.

Out of 10...
diet: 7
mental energy: 7
physical energy: 8
stress: 7.5 (see rant above)
sleep: 5 (omg snoring!!)
health: 75% ("girlfriend" still in town. ugh.)

Oh yeah. Good news...? Matt found all my cheat stashes, ate them while I was asleep this morning, got sick, and blamed me when I finally caught him. While it prevents me from going crazy with the brownie bites, sour creme & onion chips, popeyes, and ice cream, it's also annoying because my doppelganger wants to indulge. Back to my jerky mix and omelettes, I guess.

PS: I love everyone who's been so supportive, but you still suck XOXO